This is an example of an attempt to have a conversation with God. This is me practicing a method to hear God's voice within me. I want you to see the outcome of this method, and understand how it works. No, I’m not going to state that I think every single thing said here in this conversation is 100% from God. I can’t say that. How could I? I simply don't know where these words are coming from. But what I can say is that I do believe some of it is from God, because I know it helps me. And I just want to encourage you to play like this yourself, by writing down your own conversations with God. You’ll be amazed by the results! Whenever I do this myself I always receive some kind of answer. I just start connecting the dots and suddenly understand some essential point. My head just clears up. It’s like the clouds part from around my head and the sun suddenly peaks in.
Here’s how you do this: Just begin writing down your own questions and comments to God and then write His responses as if He was really answering you. Yes! Go ahead! Just like that. Write down the first thing that pops in your mind. Don’t control it. Let it sound crazy if it wants to, and just follow along with it. Just listen to those random silly thoughts that pop in your mind and let them be your guide.
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Me: Jesus, teach me how to pray.
Jesus: You already know how.
Me: I hate it when you say stuff like that.
Jesus: It’s true though.
Me: Okay! So let me summarize what I know about it then.
Jesus: That’s it! Summarize, and the answers will come. List what you know.
Me: Okay then. More than anything, prayer is about being. About looking inside and being still. Being still with the knowledge that you’re there, listening. And about me sharpening my ears to hear your quiet voice, believing in it, and staying open and obedient to it.
Jesus: Yes, exactly. What else?
Me: Prayer is a delicate dance. It’s about becoming sensitive to my inner music and following it’s tunes. There’s no formula, not really. The words I say are not so important, I mean, my choice of words during prayer and all that is not important, because it doesn’t have to sound fancy at all, or follow some pattern. It’s more about the feeling, the movement and attitude inside of me. It’s about finding this certain state of mind where I’m just still and accepting of my present moment.
Jesus: Your resistance of your present moment is often what prevents your prayers.
Me: Prayer is so much work though! It’s just pain for me!
Me: Hey Jesus, you speak in Simon and Garfunkel’s song about the Sound of Silence, don’t you? That's what your voice sounds like, like the sound of silence. This is the place my prayers takes me to, to this silence. This is you speaking, isn’t it?
Me: You also speak in John Denver’s Annie’s Song, don’t you?
Jesus: Yes. I speak in many songs. I am the fountain of songs.
Me: The “I” in Annie’s song, the “lover”, who in this case would be John, is actually you singing to me, and everyone else, your children. The “Annie” is your bride isn’t it?
Me: I love you for that. I love the poetry in your words.
Jesus: I am the fountain of poetry. I am the fountain of all things beautiful and creative. Remember: “I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.” (John 15:5-7)
Me: I can see the part of staying in you and how that makes me bear fruit. I’ve seen this over and over again. Whenever I tap into you, everything in my life just goes better. But getting to that place, when I tap into you, that’s the hard part, it’s just torture.
Jesus: Yes, it’s a battle. And usually, not pretty.
Me: Yes! A battle! And an ugly one! Oh, by the way, when I read those scriptures, what bothered me was the part about those branches apart from you that are thrown into fire. That part bothers me, because now I start thinking about hell fire and all that awful, scary stuff. It bothers me!
Jesus: You hear through your fear. Remember: “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.“ (1Jn 4: 18) What’s the point of this scripture?
Me: That what doesn’t stay in you is useless and destroyed.
Jesus: That destroying can take many forms, what you need to worry about is staying connected to me.
Jesus: You know how.
Me: But I don’t always know! When I’m busy and everything but the kitchen sink is thrown at me! I just don’t know how to find the time to silence myself then. It takes huge amounts of energy, which I don’t have.
Jesus: I understand all that.
Jesus: You’re here now.
Me: But it won’t last!
Jesus: No, you must keep working at it, always, always. You must commit yourself to me, and then the fruit will come. But it won’t be easy. I never promised you easy, did I?
Me: No. You certainly didn’t! And that part is evident, because it definitely hasn’t been easy! What about all the good stuff you promised me? I haven't seen it. Where are all your good promises to me? My life’s been pure hell.
Me: But isn’t that a way for you to always have an excuse to not give me good things in life, when you always say that I have to keep waiting? For how long? Until I’m 99? So you can tell me on my deathbed that my reward is Heaven?
Jesus: What about your excuse? I am waiting for you to come to me. “And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such thing, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well! (Lk 12:29-31) Am I not true to my own scriptures? Where are you? How long do I need to wait? I am waiting for YOU to come to me FIRST!